I have been experiencing something for some time now that I don’t understand. It feels like a burst of impulse that I can’t control. Most of the time I don’t realize I am doing it until I am done. The few times I am aware of my actions I don’t stop myself.

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Guys, is it normal for a person to move from place to place without any purpose? Yes, that’s right. I don’t drive. So it’s not even out of adventure or fun. I can’t even call it boredom. I just get out of the house, walk to the roadside and pick a car going in any direction at all. Then when I alight I join another vehicle going in another direction.

For instance, I would pick a car from Ofankor Barrier to Madina. When we get to Madina, I wouldn’t get down. I would stay in the same car and return to the Barrier. Other times, I would just pick another car to a completely different place—still with no reason at all.

It’s gotten to the point where even the trotro mates can tell there’s off about me. “Gentleman, do you know where you are going?” A few of them have asked me.

I know my behavior is odd but I can’t seem to stop it. I board a car to Lapaz, sit somewhere by the roadside, and then board another car home. In a number of these experiences, the mate would shout the name of a particular bus stop. Even when I didn’t know the place, I would respond, “That’s my stop.”

The moment I alight, I would join another moving car even if I didn’t know where the car was going. I can do this from morning till evening before I finally get home.

In case you are wondering if I am unemployed, I am not. I have a job that pays me roughly GHC900 cedis a day. It also allows me the flexibility of working from anywhere. So most of the time, I am on my laptop and my phone working.

I like working from home because of my personality. I’m an introvert. I am always awkward in social situations so I keep to myself a lot. I don’t even have friends.

There are days I wonder if I am struggling to stop this lifestyle because it is the closest I come to a social life. Or maybe it’s because I can afford it.

Whatever is wrong with me, I am just tired. I’m tired of taking transport to random places for no reason. I can go to seven different locations in a day, and come home exhausted as if I went somewhere important to do something productive. Meanwhile, it was just some aimless movements I did with my energy.

Can you believe there were times I ended up at the market? Once, I bought women’s clothing. I am talking about panties, dresses, and blouses. I regretted it instantly when I got home.

“What am I going to do with this?” I asked myself. Then I get home and regret it instantly. I don’t have a girlfriend or a sister who is close to me in Accra to give the stuff to. So I just burned the clothes out of frustration.

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Another time, I bought a phone for GHC3000 and as always, regretted it the moment I got home. I had no use for it. When I resold it, I gave it to a dealer for half the price.

Just yesterday, I bought a PS4 for GHC3000 and resold it that same day for GHC1200. Why did I do that? Because I didn’t need the PS4. I already have a PS5.

I Was Fine Until I Was Alone In My Room

I am currently sharing my story from a vehicle heading to Ashaiman. I know no one there. I have no business there. I just need to move so I am moving.

This thing is really disturbing me. I want to change things but I don’t know what to do about it. I’ve thought about making friends, but I am not sure if that would make any difference. I just need help. How can I stop wasting my time and money on unnecessary journeys?

—Simon

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