I didn’t know what the day had in store for me when I left my house that morning. I thought it was just going to be a regular day. I would go to work, go through the motions like a zombie, and then come home.

However, this was not a regular day. Everything was going on as averagely as possible when one of my colleagues walked into my office. There was a guy following him. He introduced the guy to me as a new member of our staff.

As soon as I set my eyes on this new guy, something fluttered in my heart. I felt at that moment that our meeting was cosmic. I was so overwhelmed by my feelings that I couldn’t talk. I just nodded and watched them leave.

A month after our first encounter, we became friends. I am not talking about the “Hello… Hi” kind of friendship. I am talking about the kind that makes people look at us and say, “Those two are joined by the hip.” We go to lunch together at work and do all other things together as well.

Our friendship doesn’t only end at work. Outside work, we hang out. I visit him sometimes. He also visits me on some days. There are also days he takes me out. I have done my background research on him. All the results say he doesn’t have a girlfriend. This makes me happy. It gives me hope that I have a shot with him.

We have been friends for six months now. I find him intriguing. I like everything I have seen about him so far. Apart from the the investigation I did about him, I have seen close-up that he is a good person. I believe I will make him as happy as he will make me.

He has given me permission to go to his house whenever I want to. He tells me, “You don’t have to call me before you come. My doors are always open to you.” At this point, I know he is in love with me. I am also in love with him.

I am a woman. I have been conditioned to wait until the man makes the first move. So every day I watch him and all but drool over him. The words, “I love you,” are dangling on the tip of my tongue. If I am not careful, these words will spill into his laps one day when I least expect it.

I scrutinized him to see if the words, “I love you” were hanging on the tip of his tongue too. It looks like it. I am saying this because he tells me about every move he makes before he makes them. He would insist on picking my brain on new projects. He listens to me. It is a wonderful feeling when someone lets you know that what you have to say matters to them. That’s how I know he cares about me.

I also consult him before I make certain decisions in my life. I trust his judgment. So I wouldn’t have a problem letting him lead. The way we behave, everyone who sees us together assumes we are dating. All our colleagues at work believe we are dating. They don’t believe us when we tell them we are just friends. So we don’t bother explaining our relationship anymore.

All this is going on around us yet it hasn’t occurred to this guy to propose love to me. I don’t know if he is holding back because he doesn’t see me as a girlfriend material or if there’s something else.

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I am madly in love with him. Every moment I spend concealing my feelings from him is eating away at me. I don’t know what to do about this situation. I can’t tiptoe around it anymore, if not I will implode. I have started considering the thought of confessing my feelings to him.

My concern is, won’t he see me in a certain light if I am the first to propose? Maybe he won’t take me seriously because I brought myself to him. So should I wait around for him, however long it takes, to come and propose? I have never been in this situation before so I am very confused.

Please advise me on what to do. I don’t want to miss out on a good man because I wasn’t brave enough to go get what I want. And I also don’t want to miss out on a beautiful love story because I pushed him away by coming on too strong. Help me get my man.

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—Lawrencia 

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