I met Kwaku when I started a new position at my current workplace. There was something about him that drew him to me when he said “Hi” to me for the first time. That day I replayed his voice in my head repeatedly. Every time I did that, I smiled. There are people like that, you know. They imprint their mark on you after just one encounter.
The next time I saw him was when we closed from work. I was walking to the roadside to get a car so I was in a hurry. He walked up to me and said, “Slow down. Let me walk with you.” So I slowed my pace till he caught up to me. We spoke and exchanged contacts.
After that, we started talking. The more I got to know him the more I liked him. It got to a point where I started hearing that he is married. I didn’t believe it. He looked too young to be a married man. Besides, it didn’t come up in our conversations. However, the next time I saw him I watched his ring finger. That was when I saw his wedding band sitting happily on his finger.
After I saw it myself, I decided to kill my feelings for him and just be his friend. As our friendship progressed, we planned to hang out and spend some time together. I chose the beach because it was an open space. I felt I wouldn’t do anything silly in public in case my feelings started acting up.
We got to the beach, read some books and talked deeply about our lives. After a couple of hours of comfortable silence, he kissed me. Believe me when I say that I didn’t see it coming. I was so surprised, but I kissed him back. Later, he did it again, and again.
I allowed it to happen because of my feelings for him. I know he is married, but I also know he has feelings for me. He has confessed that he is not happy in his marriage. “As soon as we got married, my wife became cold. She treats me with so much nonchalance that you would think she did me a favour by marrying me,” he said.
According to him, his wife moved to her parent’s house for a while, because she couldn’t stand him. I don’t know if he did something to offend her or if that is just the nature of their relationship.
I asked him if he is responsible for her behaviour, but he hasn’t said anything. All he said was, “I poured all my love into her but she wouldn’t give me anything back. Everything she did when we were dating became nonexistent the moment we exchanged our marriage vows. It is as if, she put up a front to get the ring. And now, she has it so she is showing me her true colours.” He said it really affected him until he decided to look for happiness outside the marriage. That’s how I came into the picture.
I make him happy. He has told me this. And I know it’s true because I see it in his actions. I don’t know what happens when he gets home, so I can say for a fact that he is miserable at home. That’s not even my concern. My problem is the guilt I feel when I think about how things have turned out.
I didn’t plan for it to get this far but I have been having an affair with him for a while now. His marriage isn’t even a year old, but we’ve been together for six months. I hate what I am doing to a fellow woman but it seems I am not strong enough to walk away.
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I’ve broken up with Kwaku several times but I love him so much that I find myself going back to him. I know it’s wrong. I know it’s not normal to feel this way about somebody’s husband. My feelings for him cannot justify how badly his pregnant wife would be hurt should she find out about us. That’s why I want it to stop. It’s just unfortunate that I can’t seem to walk away and never look back.
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His wife is due soon so I’ve told him, we can’t go on anymore. “I can’t take the attention you have to give to your family away from them. Please let go,” I have said. He says, “I know, and I am doing everything to get my wife to love me back but she’s so comfortable with the way things are, that she doesn’t care.” I want to do the right thing but I feel for him.
I know a lot of you will criticize me for this but I can’t help it. I just need to know how to unlove him and leave him without going back again. If you can give any tips on how to get his wife to love him again too, I will share it with him.
—Akua
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It seems like he’s the kind of men who have fears having intimacy with their pregnant wives. All indications are that he’s luring you with those sweet vibes because he knows how much you love him. Kill it now, because in the near future when you finally settle down and you find out your hubby is into this same act with a young girl like you; you won’t take it lightly. My two cents… thank you.
If YOU walked away from a relationship you know to be wrong, you will feel less pain than if he walked away. Sooner or later, he is going to walk away and hurt you more. So hurt yourself less now and leave a futureless relationship. Let him go and deal with his problem. You might even be proud of yourself for choosing the moral highground.
As a married man, I can confidently tell you he has NO ISSUES with his wife. You think he loves you, no he does not! He loves your body and nothing else. Every man (if given the free will) would love to have a wife and a possible side chick (which happens to be you). Marriage is not always bliss. It is a responsibility and you’re his go-to stress reliever to temporarily run away from the stress of marriage. Think about this, they have issues but he managed to get his wife pregnant?? Maame ei, focus on building yourself and let him go. He is USING YOUR BODY, definitely not in love. Let that sink!
If I could remember in the write up he said he doesn’t know how to get his wife back to love him. Meaning he needs the love of his life (his wife) and not you. He’s using you to relieve stress but he’s not into you more than you do. Please help yourself by quitting and open new doors for a new relationship.
Very well said my brother!
Very well said, my brother! Emotionalism is misleading her.
Considering a pointless future in this relationship, think about eternity. I believe you’re in a denomination. It’s a sin to fornicate let alone a married man.
Stay away from this relationship, confess your sin and be prayerful
You’ll surely meet the right one
My dear. RUN,RUN,RUN AND RUN!!!!!!
BLOCK HIM.LET HIM GO.
HE WILL HURT YOU.YOUR HEART WILL BE BROKEN.
TELL HIM UR PREGNANT AND SEE WHAT WILL HAPPEN TO YOU. HE IS LYING.HE DOES NOT LOVE YOU. HE IS USING YOU AND THE LOVE YOU HAVE FOR HIM.
HE LOVES HIS WIFE AND FAMILY. YOUR DESERT AMD NEVER THE MAIN MEAL. DETACH NOW!!!!!!