My entire life, I have dated men I love relentlessly. I lay my heart down for them in surrender. No matter how much I try, I am unable to hold back on my love. I usually give my all without considering that I could get hurt. Of course, it always ended in tears.

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This is what happens, when I love a man wholeheartedly, they get complacent and don’t value me. Something that’s supposed to be a partnership becomes a one-sided affair, one where the man acts as if he is the prize I have to keep chasing. When this happens, I don’t talk. I just quietly walk away without telling them why.

After all that roller coaster ride, I find myself in a relationship with a man who is crazy about me. It’s a long-distance relationship but he has shown me in many ways that I am the woman at the center of his heart. He provides all my needs even though I never asked him to. His name is Godsway.

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He’s everything I’ve been praying to God for. He is God-fearing, spiritually alert, caring, and effortlessly good to me. I should be happy that I have him, but the truth is, I don’t love him. I try to focus on his positive sides, in an attempt to coax the love, but my heart hasn’t thawed yet. Sometimes, it even feels like I don’t have any feelings for him at all.

Despite my lack of romantic feelings for him, I hold him in high regard. I was drawn to his spirituality; that’s what I admire most about him. I am wondering if that’s why I can’t bring myself to fall in love with him. Maybe I revere him too much to entertain carnal affection for him. Also, I am not proud to admit this but I don’t think he is handsome. Could that be the reason I am finding it hard to love him?

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Now, I am asking myself if I am destined to marry someone who loves me more than I love him. Maybe when we get married and start living together, the love will be nurtured.

Is this something that can happen easily? I am confused about staying or walking away because he is already talking about marriage. I’m not able to respond enthusiastically because of how I feel. Do you think things will get better after marriage?

—Karen

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