Meeting good men in Nigeria is close to impossible. I remember when I was a little girl, all I wanted was to be swept away by my own prince charming. It didn’t happen until I turned twenty-three. I met this guy, Isaac. He was three years older than me.
Isaac was my first love, and I very much intended to make him my first sexual partner. However, we had our fair share of problems that usually got in the way. For instance, in the early stages of the relationship we broke up twice and got back together twice. Both breakups lasted for two weeks. How could we have done anything when we were fighting?
Even when we weren’t fighting, the story was still the same. I remember one night when I went to visit him. The sexual tension was so thick you could cut through it with a knife. Surprisingly, Isaac didn’t touch me. Honestly, I was worried. I felt he didn’t find me attractive. I even asked him, “Why didn’t you do it with me when you got the chance?” Yes, I loved him so much that I didn’t think I could wait till marriage.
He told me, “I don’t want to touch you because I made a promise to God that as long as I don’t sleep with anybody’s future or present wife, let no man sleep with mine.” I laughed thinking he was joking but then I realised he was serious. I asked if he was a virgin and he said yes. I asked him, “So what if I wasn’t a virgin?” “Then I will know you are not mine,” he answered. Something in me just made me love him more.
Three years later, Isaac was in my home for the necessary steps for marriage. My father didn’t like his tribe but after much convincing, he paved the way for our love.
Four weeks to the wedding, I went out with my friends. It was a girls’ night out. This outing turned out to be my worst nightmare. It was getting late so I left before my friends, and called Isaac to come pick me up. The distance from the party venue to the main road was only a few minutes walk so I decided to walk and wait up for Isaac by the roadside.
While I walking, I felt movements behind me. I looked back and saw two shadows. I picked up my pace but they were faster. They were two guys who came out of nowhere. To spare you the horrid details, my sweet Isaac wasn’t given the honour of disvirgining me.
He arrived after the incident. When he got to the scene of the crime, I was lying on the floor crying, bleeding, and in pain. He didn’t ask me what happened. He just rushed me to the nearest hospital. When we got to the hospital I was admitted.
He stayed by my side until I told him what happened. He was devastated. He left me at the hospital and went away even though I begged him not to go. The next morning I was supposed to be discharged but I asked the doctor to conduct tests for me in case I contracted any diseases.
I still hadn’t heard from Isaac at the time I was discharged. I got home to worried parents and friends. No one had told them what happened to me. When I saw their faces, I started crying and insulting my friends for no reason. Later when I was calmed down, I explained everything to them.
My mum broke down. My friends and I also cried. I also told them Isaac left me at the hospital and I hadn’t heard from him since. My parents told me to give him time. I kept on checking my phone for his call or his text, but there was nothing. When I got tired of waiting, I called him. But he didn’t pick up.
While he was ignoring me, I kept thinking about the promise he made to God. When I didn’t hear from him for three days, I wanted to go and visit him. However, my parents advised me; “Let him be. He will come around when he is ready.”
I did as they asked, and the next day he called me. The first thing he did was apologise for leaving me at the hospital. Then he told me I had to do a test to make sure I didn’t get any infections. I told him I already did that. He asked that we both go together to the hospital for the results, and I agreed.
You cannot imagine the thoughts that kept on sweeping in my mind when it came to the possible outcome of the results. The next week, we both went to the hospital. The doctor told us there were no signs of infections. We were so relieved that when he said we would need to run another set of tests in a few weeks time, we didn’t bother.
I was glad, but I looked at the doctor and sensed there was more news. I asked him, “What else are you not saying?” He paused for a minute before saying, “There’s a life growing inside you.” I was speechless. I was almost in tears. I heard Isaac tell the doctor that we have to get rid of it.
The doctor told us that while treating me the night of my unfortunate encounter, he found out that due to the nature of my womb, getting rid of my first pregnancy might be dangerous and might destroy any chance of me getting pregnant again.
Isaac left the office. I cried more and asked the doctor if he was sure. And he said yes. I went out and found Isaac in his car. His head was resting on the steering wheel. When I got in, he drove off. It was a marathon of tears for me in the car.
When we got to my house I gathered my composure and asked him what we were going to do. He told me to leave and that he would call me. I sat there for a while looking at him with my wet eyes, but he didn’t look at me back.
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I wanted to tell him that I was sorry but I couldn’t. I don’t know why I couldn’t. I told him I would be expecting his call and gave him a kiss on the cheek, but I got no response from him. Immediately I got out of the car, he sped off.
I got into the house and said nothing to my parents even when they kept asking me questions. I got into my room and started crying and screaming. Our wedding is in three weeks. I don’t even know if I still have a wedding. I almost tore the wedding dress. It seems there’s trouble now but wait till his parents eventually find out. They are very traditional so they definitely would not allow Isaac to marry me.
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I want to get rid of the pregnancy but I can’t just yet. Not without Isaac’s permission because it might also involve his future. That’s if we still have a future together. It was five days ago he left my house, and there have been no calls or texts from him. He doesn’t respond to my calls. God knows I didn’t plan for misfortune to happen.
Yesterday I was suicidal but today I decided to share my story here for any form of support. Please, help me with any advice. Should I just let him go so he would find another girl that no man has slept with?
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Hmmmmm, the unfortunates of this life is sometimes unbearable yet we are all victims of them.May God’s will alone be done in your life.
Dear Binta, accept my sincerest condolences for everything that is happening to you so far but I feel like there are a few inconsistencies in your story so therefore I have a few questions.
1. How long was it before you were taken to the hospital after the rape?
2. If it was immediately, and tests were conducted, there is no possibility of you being pregnant in those tests. Pregnancy can only be determined after a few weeks. The earliest is a week and your timeline doesn’t add up
3. Did you tell the doctor you were raped? Because if you did, the first step of action was to give you birth control pills and then give you prep to prevent HIV/AIDS.
If your pregnancy is truly from the rape and you informed the doctor that you were raped then the doctor who attended to you was negligent. If you ever see this comment, please do a part 2 of the story and this time with the actual timelines and the truth.
This might be a fabricated story, it’s kind of drama, be realistic
I agree with you
My baby girl if you are a Christian you will know that the word of God says’IN ALL THINGS GIVE THANK TO GOD’ I know it is not easy and will not be easy.Think about this,A MAN ASKED GOD TO GIVE HIM A WIFE WHO IS A VIRGIN AND YOU ARE A VIRGIN..,WHY WILL GOD PERMIT YOU TO BE RAPED AT A TIME LIKE THAT? THINK ABOUT IT SERIOUSLY.(AS FOR THE BABY DONT AND DON’T TOUCH IT,.) YOU HAVE A TESTIMONY TO GIVE ABOUT IT ONE DAY AND I MEAN A GREAT TESTIMONY. DONT FORCE THE YOUNG MAN ALLOW HIM DO WHAT HIS HEART WILL TELL HIM TO DO.
GOD BLESS YOU AND GIVE YOU THE STRENGTH YOU NEED TO CARRY ON AND ONE DAY YOU BE SING PRAISES.
My dear you getting rid of the child won’t cause him to marry you. If he wants you he will come around for you. Two he has no right to decide whether you keep the child or not. If he decides to get rid of it , it would turn into a blame game in the future. I know it’s not easy but try to think positively. As for the child if it were up to me alone I will say keep it because for all you know you when you abort you won’t be able to reproduce and also the guilt of committing the abortion. If he leaves you then he was never meant to be yours in the first place. As long as you are alive you can get another opportunity of getting married. Don’t think of hating the innocent child. Good luck. Pray in all what you do.
Awww, sorry for the misfortunes.
But I may ask, did u in any way discuss with ur friends about ur boyfriend’s ambition to marry a virgin?, this incident looks like a planned thing.
however the situation, u can’t commit suicide bcos of this, your life is very precious to God 🙏. Just keep calm and pray for God’s intervention. If he refuses to marry you that will never be the end of you.
My baby girl if you are a Christian you will know that the word of God says’IN ALL THINGS GIVE THANK TO GOD’ I know it is not easy and will not be easy.Think about this,A MAN ASKED GOD TO GIVE HIM A WIFE WHO IS A VIRGIN AND YOU ARE A VIRGIN..,WHY WILL GOD PERMIT YOU TO BE RAPED AT A TIME LIKE THAT? THINK ABOUT IT SERIOUSLY.(AS FOR THE BABY DONT AND DON’T TOUCH IT,.) YOU HAVE A TESTIMONY TO GIVE ABOUT IT ONE DAY AND I MEAN A GREAT TESTIMONY. DONT FORCE THE YOUNG MAN ALLOW HIM DO WHAT HIS HEART WILL TELL HIM TO DO.
GOD BLESS YOU AND GIVE YOU THE STRENGTH YOU NEED TO CARRY ON AND ONE DAY YOU BE SING PRAISES.
So sorry to hear about this terrible incident. Honestly, the doctor was very vague about the reason for not terminating the pregnancy. The ‘nature of your womb’ statement might need more investigating so please seek a different medical opinion. All the best.
Poor you, Binta. I presume you were probably ‘talking plenty’ to your girls-girls and other males friends. One could also speculate communition-related challenges between you two. Walking all alone that dusky patch was too risky a decision. But going forward let’s thank Allah for all things. Please you need to keep that baby. If you were so certain as woman that he really failed to respond to stimulus as a man, it might as well be from the look of things that this your Isaac guy might not even be able to ‘give you a child’ but was only only playing the religious/virgin card: Cos hey, “somethin mors kiih a man”. And come to think of it, wouldn’t it be rather ridiculous to believe that God also told this your prophetic fiancé to let you terminate the pregnancy in the doctor’s office? Due to the medical advise, please abortion is a no-no. Please! and Please! be kind to yourself and to the world/humanity and keep the pregnancy no matter what. This might as well be your only chance of pregnancy as with some other cases. The fetus is innocent, and who knows if that child you are carrying would be that gift (maybe the next or a greater Dangote(?) ) for our generation? Only be determined (God so help you) to brave the upbraids and jaundiced prejudices from friends, family, and/or society.
It is very pathetic but I want to suggest why not visit another medical practitioner for a second opinion.If Isaac is meant for you,he will stand firm by you.
As a medical practitioner, I don’t understand why your HCP did not give you emergency contraceptive after the rape incident to prevent any unwanted pregnancy. It is still too early to rule out any infections like Hiv as you need to get tested for that 6 months after the rape. To prevent that some facilities will put you on post exposure antiretroviral drugs to prevent any HIV infection just in case one of the beast that did that to you harbored the virus. Your situation is a very dicey one. As for your fiance, give him time because it’s difficult for him just as it is difficult for you. As for Abortion, if you are a Christian, you know that is not an option. God will see you through this!
Damn!!! What a very sad story. My dear, accept whatever decision he takes and move on with your life. I think you should keep the pregnancy because the consequences may be dire as the doctor. Who knows he or she may turn out to be the most important person in your family.
Binta can you please contact me on this number, 0591006402
I feel there’s more to this,we needto talk,kindly get intouch
@Princess just read the story well, she did the test after the boyfriend came back I think after 3weeks.
I agree with you on the doctor, he/she did her wrong, at least they shud have given her drugs to prevent the pregnancy.
I don’t believe the story though