I am a thirty-two-year-old nurse who cannot even boast of GHC1,000 in my account. No, I am not lazy. I work hard. Every thing that is required of me to do, I do it diligently yet I cannot point to anything I have accomplished in my life. Ever since I started working four years ago, I have tried to have something else to do on the side but it’s been almost impossible

I have ventured into businesses but none of them yielded any results. I even took loans and used them as capital for some of the businesses but I only ran into debts. I became scared of trying another business on my own as a result. I decided to play it safe and invest in someone else’s business.

First, it was my friend’s business. I invested GHC4,500 into it. She took the money peacefully but when the time came for me to start reaping the profits, it became war. Now, we have become enemies. I didn’t get the return on my investment, and neither did I get the principal amount I invested. The money just went down the drain.

After her, I invested in my partner’s fish farming business. I took a loan of GHC12,000 for this. Something went wrong and it triggered another thing to go wrong and it led to an incident. Long story short, I lost all that money.

Sometimes I feel like giving up but I am a strong woman. So I keep pushing for the sake of my siblings who are looking up to me. They are the reasons my salary finishes by the 5th of the month. I take care of two of them in school. One is in high school while the other one is in university. I have two other siblings who also pitch in but it’s still hard. By the time I am done with the expenses, I have nothing left to save for myself. It’s the reason most of my colleagues have their degrees but I still haven’t gone back to school to get mine.

Of all the losses I have made, the one that pained me most happened when I bought a goat last month. They had just paid our salaries. I decided I would buy a goat in the village so my mum would take care of it for me. I just wanted to have something in my name.

Last Monday my mum called to tell me the goat went missing about a week ago. They searched everywhere but couldn’t find it. I feel I am the only person something like this would happen to. How can a goat I bought disappear in less than three weeks? Another money gone, GHC400. The amount seems small but I was so hurt considering how tightly I had to squeeze myself to spare that money.

When I think about the fact that nothing seems to work for me I feel I am cursed. It’s not just the businesses. My relationships suffer too. Every relationship I have been in ended badly. I am not a demanding person. No guy I have dated has spent up to GHC500 on me. They always go broke when it comes to me. I am even the one who spends money on them sometimes.

My current partner, for instance, is not financially stable. He went to school abroad and returned to Ghana hoping to find a job but so far he is still job hunting. This is the reason he wasn’t enthused when I found out I was pregnant in April. He asked me to get rid of it but at thirty-two, it didn’t make sense for me to do that. I chose to keep the baby. Since then, he has been acting up.

When he said he didn’t have money for a child I told him, “I have a job so I will hold the fort. When you get a job then you support.” Because of this, he has washed his hands off everything concerning me and the baby. I am almost in my seventh month but he has never given me a penny. When it comes to emotional support too, it’s zero.

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He lives in Accra while I live in a town in the Bono region because of work. He knows I am pregnant but he can go for weeks without calling me. When I call him, he picks up at his own convenience. He has never visited me at my station. No, our relationship is not new. We’ve been together for three years and my family knows him. I expected so much from him but here we are.

I am a strong woman, I know but gradually my strength is wearing out. If I can’t have a thriving relationship, at least let me have money. Is that too much to ask for? I am very prayerful. And I know I am not a bad person. I do my best to contribute to society. It’s just sad that nothing seems to be working for my good. How can one person be doing poorly in two important aspects of her life?

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This is why I have come to you today. I am not looking for anything but words of encouragement. Maybe there’s someone who found themselves in my shoes at some point in their life. I need to know there’s light at the end of this tunnel. Most importantly, I want to be connected to a powerful man of God.

I am a prayerful Christian but sometimes you need someone with a higher authority in the spiritual realm to help you break some yokes. Ever since my goat went missing, I have felt like I need that kind of divine intervention. That’s what I am looking for. I am sure there’s a spiritual sabotage in my life. So if anyone here knows a powerful man of God who can turn things around for the better, please connect me.

— Afika

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