I don’t know if this is normal but it’s disturbing my relationship and make me fear for the future of this relationship. We’ve been dating distantly for the past year. I love her and from all indications she loves.

Her work schedule is very tight and mine too but whenever we get the time, we travel to see each other. It doesn’t happen as much as we want it but time and again, we make time to see each other.

When we are apart, we can be on the phone all night. On weekends, we’ll call each other on video call and leave it on while we go about our day’s business. It’s our way of creating time for the relationship so we can also bond.

Not long ago, I had a week off and decided to spend it with her. I couldn’t wait to see her face. I planned in my head all the things I would do to and with her when we meet. We had fun for two days until I started getting bored.

I wanted to go home. All of a sudden, I felt like I needed privacy. I needed time away from her. Her presence became too much and her voice felt like a bee in my ears. I went into myself and shut down. She thought I was sick because of how I was behaving. I didn’t know the town that much but I preferred to take long walks alone. She wanted to come along and she did. All of a sudden the walk lost its joy. We came home earlier. Instead of seven days, I spent only six days.

Currently, she’s here with me. She is on a month’s leave and will spend three weeks with me. I had no problem with it until we spent a week together. All of a sudden I’m dreading the days ahead. I’m like, “How will I survive with her constant presence for two more weeks?”

It’s not her fault. She hasn’t said anything wrong or put a foot wrong. She’s beautiful and more beautiful when she lets herself go the way she does when she’s around me but I feel she’s too much. She sucks the air in the room and makes me uncomfortable.

I Had Some Hope For Marriage Until He Invited Me To His Wedding

This is a woman I’m going to marry. Soon we’ll share a roof and she’ll have no reason to go away and neither will I have a chance to live where she isn’t. If a week is too much to bear, how will forever feel like?

This is what I’m battling with. Is it normal? Am I normal?

— Faisal

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