When my ex-wife and I got separated I was a wreck. It was never in my wildest dream that I would become a divorcé. The day I said my wedding vows was one of the happiest days of my life. I looked at my wife and imagined us growing old together. I imagined that we would die together, even. This is why I felt like a complete failure when my marriage fell apart. It seemed like my life had spiralled out of control, and I was powerless to get a grip on things.

I knew that the best course of action was to move on but I was in no mental state to do that. So I focused all my energy on rebuilding my business and taking care of my emotional and mental health. It’s been over five years now and I’m in a better place. My divorce was finalized along the line but I have taken it all in good faith.

My business is doing well, and I am at peace with my past. A few months ago I decided to get back out there and find love again. I didn’t know the dating world had changed that much until I started dating again. Or maybe it hasn’t changed at all. It’s probably always been this way but I didn’t get to experience some of the things I am now facing.

All I am looking for is someone I can build a solid relationship with. I want a second chance love. I want a woman I can share my heart and my home with. You know, the kind of person who would love me for who I am and not what I can give them. I felt like I had lost my touch when it comes to meeting women, so I started with online dating. I sighed up on Tinder and Bumble. I must confess that the situation out there is crazy.

Most of the women I have met and interacted with seemed interested in getting to know me. We would talk on a personal level and arrange a meeting. We wouldn’t even go beyond two dates before they start requesting favours. They are always subtle about it but I am not a child. I am in my forties. Which is to say that I know when I am being used.

We would be texting on the phone or texting, only for them to say, “Hun, I am ordering lunch. Would you pay for it for me?” I would say, “Of course, I’ve got you.” The next thing I will hear is, “I am running late so I am ordering a ride to work. Will you please pay for it?” It’s either that or, “Please, I have exhausted my transportation budget for the rest of the month. Can you send me some money to take care of that?” I thought these women wouldn’t go beyond food and transportation support but I was wrong.

I have met women who fall seriously ill immediately after our first date. They would ask me to pay their hospital bills and buy expensive medications for their recovery. The question I always asked myself is, “How will these women have taken care of their health if they hadn’t met me?” There are others who would lament about how their bosses haven’t paid their salaries for months. They wouldn’t directly ask me for money but it’s obvious that’s what they want.

There are others who ask me to provide data bundles for them. Someone even asked me to buy her a new phone. This is someone I had just met. One of the strangest requests I received was a demand for shuperu. This woman told me point-blank that she wasn’t looking for a relationship. She just wanted a good time. This was when I realized that there was a problem somewhere.

I grew up in a culture where women have to be wooed, feel loved, and even promised marriage before they would consider intimacy with a man. So I was shocked when I met someone who wasn’t interested in getting to know me. She just wanted to use me for sex. I am not that kind of man. I am a hopeless romantic if you ask me. I want to get to know someone, form a connection with them, and fall in love with them before I even consider taking them to bed.

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I am also a generous guy who likes to spoil my woman. However, the women I have gone on dates with for the past few months have given me the impression that today’s woman is only out there looking for financial support instead of love.

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My friends tell me to just enjoy the moment. “Give the girls what they want. It’s not like you can’t afford it. In return, you will get your pound of flesh. Everybody wins.” The truth of the matter is that I can’t live my life like that. Life is too short for me to spend it chasing fun and frivolity. I want to find love, the kind that will last me for a lifetime.

I am monogamous by all standards so I don’t want a woman I have to share with someone else. However, it looks like the relationships available these days require payment before love. If I have to pay a woman to earn their love, does it mean I am paying for the intimacy that comes with being with them? What’s wrong with just liking someone for who they are and enjoying them as they are? Or am I the problem? Maybe I am too old-fashioned for modern dating. Kindly share your thoughts on this with me.

—Paul 

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